home alone -__-

well i've been watching movies ALL day. Netflix has been my only company throughout the day and i can safely say it's been alright. just me, the couch, some snacks, and netflix. Sometimes you just need to take a day off and chill, kick your feet up and relax. I just took my phone and put it up under a pillow (not like anyone was calling me anyways). I was supposed to be in school but since im such a bad-ass *cough cough* i skipped. Yep. Just waited untill my mom left for work, dropped my brother off at the bus stop, and stayed home (hard work right??). Sometimes i just get into these funks where i don't feel like doing anything, talking to anyone, just thinking or sleeping or just doing nothing period. I just want to wallow in my misery and i feel that's perfectly fine. I feel as if everyone should have that time to themselves to cry and wonder and question why things happen because without it we would never truly understand how to move on and let go. Sometimes when you just sit in silence and think things over the clarity and understanding comes quicker than ever before. People can tell you all they want but until you realize it for yourself NOTHING will change. Everyone has a different way of dealing with problems, i usually sleep. I know it's weird but it works for me. See until i got this blog here there was no way for me to get out my feelings, i have a best friend but she's not the type i feel comfortable telling everything to. She's better with cheering me up not helping me actually deal with problems. Then there's my mom, i love her with everything i have but she's not the best with sharing problems with either because sooner or later the whole family will know my problems and then it's just down hill from there ( i've learned the hard way). I've just adapted and learned how to deal with things by myself (until i find someone whom i can trust to share some of the load) but until then here's my way. When i get frustrated and need to "talk" i think to myself all the things i would say to someone else, then i might give myself encouragement (a little pep talk if you must {might take up to an hour}) so after than i'm probably cried out and tired so i sleep it off...by the time i wake i'm over it or just accepted it to the point where im ok (whatever that is.) My way isn't exactly perfect and my problems don't exactly get fixed or dealt with but it's the best i can do and it'll work FOR NOW
CHALLENGE: comment how you cope with your problems
(does it ACTUALLY work OR like me you're just tryna get by)